I just really struggled with confessing it’s such a Huge thing for me and I have always always sought reassurance throughout life so it’s getting out of that ! I couldn't work, I couldn't eat, and I could barely get out of bed. However, an hour or two later, the guilty feeling was back. You can slow things down and you can stop. It is so difficult and seems like a simple enough task but it’s hard! But to me it’s the most difficult thing ever! Intrusive thoughts are unwelcome thoughts that enter your head and cause distress. Courtney E. Ackerman, MSc. OCD is a tricky beast. In the week leading up to my appointment, I felt worse than ever. Thinking I must have done something wrong, I got back up and showered for the third time that night. I feel myself slyly getting it in to the conversation without actually saying it! What are intrusive thoughts? Put on a different pair of pajamas. I immediately felt better after confessing to my mom. I know that when big changes occur in my life, I should expect my OCD to pop up, which makes it scary to think about the future. Confessing to my boyfriend worked for a little while, but then it stopped working altogether. OCD is a complex and harmful disorder, and it can be confusing when you're wondering how to help a friend. The cycle I began in 2001 had started all over again, just with a different person. Some nights, I showered eight times, exhausting myself and intensifying my frustration. My OCD grabbed hold of my brain and had me convinced I was going to go crazy and end up alone in a mad house. But it all makes sense now. If you are a Christian, anything you have done has been forgiven and forgotten from God(as far as the East is from the West). I dried off my left arm, my right arm, my left leg, my right leg, then my back, and then my front. Obsessions are unwanted, intrusive thoughts, images or urges that trigger intensely distressing feelings. I worry excessively about things. Sorry if I've not been as helpful as other posters - reaching out moreso to say you're not alone in this and I hope that helps in some way. If I touch my genitals (not in a sexual way) just in general if I’m lying in bed or something, if I’ve scrolled past an image on social media of a guy it will stick in my head and I’ll convince myself I am doing it over that image! Thanks for reading, sorry this is kind of long. I relied a lot when my sexuality OCD and relationship OCD started on telling my boyfriend as a way of alleviating how I felt. Oh, and I got strep throat a second time. I spend a lot of time in my own head, so learning how to navigate what goes on inside of it has been paramount to living the closest thing to a normal life that I can muster. I hope that your boyfriend is understanding, he sounds like a good guy and I’m sure that he will be. OCD affects every aspect of my life, like how I complete my work, when I have sex, when I take a shower, and how I clean the bathroom. O Then I threw up. The details are fuzzy, as they were then, but I knew that it was somehow my fault. This is something I’ve been trying to control recently. @Chels I relate to this a lot so can sympathise. He broke up with me because of his worries. I'm happy to share that I'm only showering once a night, and I'm sleeping just fine. I've tried my hardest to stop as I've come to realise that a) it's a compulsion and I'll only prolong the agony and b) I did start to feel guilty over sharing this stuff with my boyfriend and the thought of him having to hear what's going on in my head, even if it's not actually factual things. If I had done a "bad" thing, I would need to tell my mom. If the person posting doesn’t agree with the response, which should always be, “it doesn’t matter, it’s ocd - stop”. That’s all. Those that don’t have OCD can’t get their heads around why it’s so hard for us to keep things to ourselves and not worry. When I came up with something, I called my mom and told her. He can’t understand why I feel the need to tell him he thinks it should just be easy to keep it to myself because he can no problem but I can’t fully get him to understand how I feel inside x, @cashewnutsandraisins hi and thank you, no you have helped and I appreciate your reply to me! I was experiencing what felt like a mental breakdown, and it wasn't pretty. I felt guilty, and I didn't know why. The next night, again I couldn't sleep. 4 weeks ago, by Chanel Vargas I am getting better as I get older but it does get hard  xx, @dimmerswitch hi thank you for your reply, no your totally right. 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